judged

i hate being judged.
my age, my bra size, the length of my skirt, my bitching skills.
no one can see beyond that.
i dont know why.
it's as if i'm turning shallow..
appearing to be a bimbo.
and the lack of intelligence.

that's why i'm scared.
when i age, when i fall, when i lose what i have.
how will you see me?
how can anyone see me?

it seems i have lost all dignity as a woman,
failed as a student, a daughter, a friend
and guess what?
i think i've failed me.
terribly.