reflections

it doesnt really matter how i feel.
the feeling's wrong.
wrong as in a major problemo.

sometimes it's out of mere jealously.
maybe i'm just jealous that people are happier than me.
i have to go ruin it for them.

maybe it's just me.
i'm such a sicko.
FREAK!!

maybe it's cos i dont care about what people think.
status quo.
that's why the things i do are unacceptable.

maybe i'm just wrong.

it does matter how i feel,
cos i cant feel you.
if that's the case,
what was i trying to do?