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went to read my friends' blogs.
and i thought..
what have i seen to make me think that this world isnt as beautiful as any of them described?
it's not fun being me.

went to learn how to play pool. courtesy of jac, who insisted that i shouldnt wear a plunging neckline.
haha.
funny guy.

met john for my namecards.
all fully printed.
heh.

the other woman

the moment i laid my eyes on her, i knew she lost.
she knew she lost.
a woman in her late twenties, giving up so much for her husband and child, giving up her once almost-perfect figure, her career, her looks.
i can see it in her eyes. she knew the heart of the man she married was no longer with her.
she came, to find out who had stolen it.
she came at the wrong time.
she thought she lost to me.
i hate to tell her that she lost to someone more capable, more beautiful, more adorable.
no, not to me.
how fair is it? to marry someone you love so much. then to realise that he loves someone more caring, more attractive than you.
not because you're not a good wife.
no. that's just fate playing you.
to him she's not just another woman, she's the other woman.
one that can so easily replace you. once you start to give up and leave him.
the world is never perfect.
i just feel.. disappointed.

and then i thought.. what would i have done if i were her?
suffer in silence?
would i have done that?
or walk out on him?
can i do that?
then i start to resent my friend for doing this to her.
and the other friend for being the other woman.
can i blame them?
they are just two people in love.
at the wrong time.

then i remembered the guy i loved.
and i laughed.
that's just fate.
playing us.

Namecard

so.. comments.. what do you guys think of this namecard?

timetable

lost the battle of the timetable.

undergrads like myself will understand what i mean.

every semester, we glue our eyes in front of the computer just so we can get decent modules for ourselves.

and now, i'm freaking stuck at home cos the add/drop isnt over and jac reckons i shouldnt give up.

so i cant go out.

supposed to go get my yellow carebear.
haha!

(i know i'm losing it)

so anyway. i got a 5 days week.

like.. are you insane? those hostel kids got a 3 day and i have a 5 day?

i really should buy a car.

ok. dear god. if you exist. be nice and let me strike toto k? i need enough cash to buy a car.

if you dont, bummer.

my hols

updates updates!

okay. for one thing, i'm not lost somewhere in congo. i know most of you havent seen me in awhile. actually. you guys have not seen me since my birthday.

oh my god.

i'm just a little busy.

haha.

nothing really interesting happens to me these days.
no one dumps me. i'm not dumping anyone. no cute guys in my life.

seriously. i dont even know what i can update on.

ok. i gained a kg.

if that's even worth noting.

my life's really.. amazing.
haha.

i've been a spoilt brat since young.
teenage was a breeze.

you see.. i'm still 20.
a long long way to go.

i've practically done what i've wanted.

please dont give me any accessories for christmas. besides a wedding band with a round-cut diamond ring, nothing appeals to me anymore.

it's like i'm so sick of these kind of stuff.

and no IT accessories as well.

i've seen enough hardware to buy over sim lim square.

how come i still feel like a kid?
haha.

had my fortune told. seems that my whole life will be dedicated to work. (thank god).

that also means i wont marry a fiercely rich guy.

damnit.

seriously. i dont trust the fortune teller guy.
he asked me if my relationship with my husband is good.
i almost fainted.

really.. some people.

wished i've been careful with my heart.
that's probably one of the greatest regrets in my life.

i probably wont make a mistake like that again.

or a mistake like that nasty haircut.


these days i just tie a pony tail, wear my glasses, dress in shorts and go to work.
no cute guy to see anyway.


i've gotten a little.. complacent i guess.

for someone as vain as me.. to wear glasses. haha.

i am so not pretty.

crystal-love

Finally! after three months of hard work..

*clears throat*

MY WEBBIE IS HERE!!!!!

i dont care what you guys do.. just go get yourselves registered as members! or i'll personally hunt you down! keke. okay. i lied about the hunting part.

haha. go check it out!! just to clock the page hits. lol.

The English Language...

English has to be one of the hardest languages to understand. Read the paragraph below and try to understand the meaning.

Two individuals proceeded towards the apex of a natural geologic protuberance, the purpose of their expedition being the procurement of a sample of fluid hydride of oxygen in a large vessel, the exact size of which was unspecified. One member of the team precipitously descended, sustaining severe damage to the upper cranial portion of his anatomical structure; Subsequently the second member of the team performed a self rotational translation oriented in the same direction taken by the first team member.

In plain English what does this translate to?

Jack and Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water Jack fell down and broke his crown and Jill came tumbling after!

taken from ebaumsworld.com

politics

this game, otherwise known as the clash of the egos, is a game youngsters today steer away from. who can blame them?

i'm not interested in politics.

it's almost like watching monkeys fight in the zoo.

but you see, politics is something more than that. we seem to forget that these people represent us. these people are us.

personally, i like tony blair.

no particular reason why, but at least he agrees that we have a problem known as global warming.

not everyone agrees with that.

the earth is fine.. they insist, and continue to kill the beautiful planet we now stand on.

three cheers for blair and boo to you-know-who.

i'm not exactly a tree-hugger, hey.. but i do care if this game affects my life. never mind if it's the decision of a few men hiding away in some remote corners of the earth.

what a statement.

what i've also failed to see, is also blair's political reason for making certain decisions.

the kyoto treaty , for one, is a space no one's supposed to touch. i highly suspect scientists are over exaggerating the harmful effects of it while politicians making understatements.

i suppose we cant leave the problem to environmentalists.

but instead of calculating when we are all going to die, how about start on what we should do? i'm suggesting something feasible, not burn more fuel and try to migrate to mars.

华文

几乎忘了华文在我生命中扮演的角色。

就这样，渐渐地不再用这个语言，不再去接近这令人又爱又恨的华文了。

英语就不同了，没有复杂的笔画。您瞧，在华文的世界中, 连一点也很重要，能将个太子变成了犬。英语嘛，除了源至其它外语的字之外，读法可和拼音一样。例: rendezvous (French), sachet (French).

Okay, i got tired of typing in that crappy language.

other than that, how often do we encounter hard to write words? barely.

anyway. that wasnt my topic for today.

i was kind of.. well, cleaning up (like.. surprise surprise!) when i came across the letters my secondary school friends wrote to me.. people like jocelin, christina, may, lena.. and oh my god. was i that much of an "ah lian"? heh.

the nasty comments we write in our letters. bleah.

i mean. maybe i still am pretty "lian", but i prefer to use the word bitch. keke. it doesnt really matter i suppose. i mean, given a choice, i'm sure most of you will prefer the "me" back then, mainly cos i wasnt as paranoid and unstable.

why did i refuse to go back to work?

you see, some nasty manager made a comment about me being a flirt. actually, i think she made it sound more like a whore. you see, me, being an unmarried bitch to begin with, cant care less, but most people out there are attached, married, with kids. any idea what these rumors can do to their lives?

so i'm finally being considerate.

or maybe i'm just trying to save my own skin. with trash like that hovering around me there's no way my integrity can avoid being soiled.

and that's my advice to you, you nasty old hag.
you can never stop being jealous of me.

car

i have lobster face, lobster paws, and lobster neck.

totally sunburnt.

thank god ah rong was with me when i was doing the stock take.
freaking boring.

haha. she had to entertain me.

listening to mr brown's podcast stuff. pretty funny.

listen when you guys are bored.

http://podcast.mrbrown.com/tmbs-051010.mp3
http://podcast.mrbrown.com/nov2005/tmbs-051111-zhng_my_car2.mp3

haha. "got see the malaysia the proton? the spoiler bigger than the car!"

"engine a bit sad - no turbo"

"in singapore you cannot go far, all you have to do is to beat the rest to the next traffic light."

"turbo sound fast can already"

look turbo - "sticker lo"

"car no neon ar.. dont look fierce"

haha. i so totally agree with johnny.