hu Beneath The Masks: May 2006

Beneath The Masks

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Monday, May 29, 2006

Unspoken

Sometimes you know what the other party is trying to say. feelings that are just too difficult to be expressed in words.

"i love you"
"i'm sorry"

and i know some egoistic males have trouble saying

"thank you"

maybe it's because they're shy, or afraid that you will have a negative reaction.

maybe that's why.

maybe that's why these words are more often than not left unspoken.

will you regret not saying it? at a point in time when everything is too late, and you cant redeem yourself by saying those words, what will you do?

i've always thought that it's most difficult to express your love for someone.
it's freaking hard to say "i love you".. right?

it's nothing compared to "i dont love you anymore".

that's really the hardest.
and i'm waiting for you to say it.
cos i dont have the courage to.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Meaning of flowers

Acacia - concealed love, beauty in retirement, friendship

Alyssum - worth beyond beauty

Amaryllis - pride, splendid beauty

Anemone - forsaken

Agapanthus - love letters

Allium - unity, humility

Aster - symbol of love, dainty, afterthought

Azalea - take care of yourself, fragile passion, first love

Baby's Breath - happiness

Bachelor Button - celibacy, single blessedness

Begonia - beware

Bells of Ireland - good luck

Bridal Rose - happy love

Butterfly Orchid - gaiety

Bluebell - humility

Buttercup - childishness

Cactus - endurance

Camellia (Pink) - longing

Camellia (Red) - you're a flame in my heart, unpretentious excellence

Camellia (White) - you're adorable, loveliness, good luck

Carnation (General) - fascination, woman's love

Carnation (Pink) - I'll never forget you, woman's love, always on my mind

Carnation (Red) - my heart aches for you, passion

Carnation (Purple) - capriciousness

Carnation (Solid Color) - yes

Carnation (Striped) - refusal

Carnation (White) - innocence, pure love

Carnation (Yellow) - you disappoint me, rejection, disdain

Caladium - great joy, delight

Candytuft - indifference

Clover - good luck

Chrysanthemum (General) - a wonderful friend

Chrysanthemum (White) -truth

Chrysanthemum (Yellow) - slighted love

Chrysanthemum (Red) - I love you

Cyclamen - resignation, goodbye

Daffodil - unrequited love, you are the only one

Daisy - innocence, loyal love, purity

Dandelion - faithfulness, happiness, rustic oracle

Dogwood - love undiminished

Dahlia - instability

Forget-Me-Not - true love, memories

Forsythia - anticipation, good nature

Gardenia - you are lovely, secret love

Gerbera Daisies - happiness

Gladioli - I am sincere, strength of character

Goldenrod - treasure, good fortune

Heather - admiration, solitude, protection

Holly - defense, domestic happiness

Honeysuckle - sweetness of disposition

Hyacinth (General) - games and sports, rashness

Hyacinth (Blue) - constancy

Hyacinth (Purple) - please forgive me, sorry

Hyacinth (Pink or Red) - playfulness

Hydrangea - thank you for understanding

Iris - your friendship means so much to me, wisdom, faith

Ivy - wedded love, fidelity

Lavender - constancy

Lily (White) - virginity, purity, sweetness

Lily (Yellow) - I'm walking on air, false and gay

Lily (Orange) - wealth

Lily (Calla) - beauty

Lily (Day) - Chinese emblem for mother

Lily of the Valley - sweetness, return of happiness

Lisianthus - appreciation

Lotus - mystery, truth, estranged love

Magnolia - nobility, love of nature

Marigold - cruelty, grief, jealousy

Myrtle - love, Hebrew emblem of marriage

Narcissus - egotism, stay sweet

Oleander - caution, beware

Orange Blossom - innocence, eternal love, chastity, purity

Orchid - love, beauty, Chinese symbol for many children

Pansy - thoughtful recollection, thoughts

Peony - shame, happy life, happy marriage

Phlox - sweet dreams

Poinsettia - be of good cheer

Rosemary - remembrance

Rose (Peach) - desire and excitement

Rose (Pink) - perfect happiness

Rose (White & Red Together) - unity

Rose (Red) - love, I love you, passion

Rose (Tea) - I'll remember always

Rose (Thornless) - love at first sight

Rose (White) - innocence and purity, I am worthy of you

Rose (White & Red Mixed) - Unity

Rose (Yellow) - friendship, decrease of love, jealousy

Rosebud - beauty and youth

Roses (Bouquet of Mature Blooms) - gratitude

Roses (Single Full Bloom) - I love you

Snapdragon - deception, gracious lady, presumption

Stock - bonds of affection, lasting beauty

Sunflower - devotion, sunshine

Tulip - perfect love, luck

Tuberose - dangerous pleasure

Water Lily - eloquence and persuasion

Wisteria - youth and poetry

Viscaria - will you dance with me?

ROSES

Red Roses - love, I love you, passion

White Roses - innocence and purity, I am worthy of you

White & Red Roses Together - unity

Yellow Roses - friendship, decrease of love, jealousy

Peach Roses - desire and excitement

Pink Roses - perfect happiness

Tea Roses - I'll remember always

Thornless Roses - love at first sight

Rosebud - beauty and youth

Bouquet of Mature Rose Blooms - gratitude

One Single Full Bloom - I love you

CARNATIONS

Carnation (General) - fascination, woman's love

Pink Carnation - I'll never forget you, woman's love, always on my mind

Red Carnation - my heart aches for you, passion

Purple Carnation - capriciousness

Solid Color Carnation - yes

Striped Carnation - refusal

White Carnation - innocence, pure love

Yellow Carnation - you disappoint me, rejection, disdain


From http://www.meanings-of-flowers.com/

anime character

was having breakfast today in BK when a kid, led by her mum and dad stepped in. the kid pointed in my general direction excitedly and said something to her parents. i simply took it as something like "there are seats there" and resumed chomping on my high fat burger.

so they settled down at a table near me. i swear that the girl was taking unneccessary glances at me. trying to avoid her glance, i stuffed my face with more hash browns.

then the unexpected happened.

apparantly while the dad went to buy good, and the mum was making phonecalls, and the girl suddenly appeared at a seat BESIDE me, and stared, her eyes wide opened like i was some kind of fascinating invention.

it was after a disturbing 5 minutes before they realised that their girl was with me, and they came forward to scold her "it's rude to stare" while the father murmured an apologetic explanation.

it seems that i looked like some character off an anime or something.

so while she was dragged back to her seat, she still turned and gave me one of those innocent stares occassionally.

if wearing my fringe up on a bad hair day can keep a girl so happy, i'll do it more often. at least they appreciate me more than the guys do.

ok, so after the movie star, twin sister, hongkong actress and anime character, i suppose i cant complain that my life is boring.

Phone

Finally bought a phone. N6280. and i havent even gotten my pay yet. sigh. i hate buying phones. it's so new i dont dare to use it!

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Medical Certificate

MC's the greatest form of literature ever written in medical history.

wait.

it's the greatest form of literature written in the history of mankind.

call me to chat people!
i'm free today!!

haha

Monday, May 22, 2006

Daisypath Ticker

last time

i'm running out of excuses.

it's not a good time because:
i'm having exams soon
i have a project due tomorrow
i'm working now
i'm busy now

i ran out of excuses. so i had to answer your call.

sigh.

"last time i would have said 'yes'" to you. yeah. like you said~ last time.

last time we were young. naive. in love.
love as we know was nothing more than mere infatuation and dreams of fairy-tales.
that was last time.
last time was years ago. wasnt it?

now we've woken up, opened our eyes, see reality as it is.
and realise that we know nothing about love.
last time we would have been skeptical, run around like kids, argue over the slightest things.
you think i dont remember the past?
you think i dont remember my past?

you're not the only one haunting me now.

why are you people doing this to me?
i said the same thing 3 times in my life -

there's just so much as to what i can take.
i wont always be here for you forever.
take me for granted and one day i might just leave you.

3 times to 3 different idiots and no one takes me seriously.

then now you idiots come to haunt me.

how fun is it?
to see me go through each flashback?

stop staring at the ground.
cos i know that happens when my inferiority complex starts sinking in.
i just dont dare to look at any guy in the eye anymore.
and it's not fair.

last time i was confident.
now i'm a coward.

maybe that's why you people want me back now. i'm no longer a threat.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

got this off rick's blog.. i think he's really sweet..

PLEASE TREASURE the friends around you. Never take anyone 4 GRANTED. You will only know n regret when u lose him/ her.

He/ She may not be the most funny guy, prettiest gal, BUT one who will do the smallest, sweetest thing 4 u when u are not even aware of it. N they are the ones who will share with u ur woes, in bad times, they will be THERE 4 U!!!


Hope he's doing great..
=)

Friday, May 05, 2006

phones

sigh,

N72 isnt 3G ..

i wonder if it makes it a lousy choice..

should i wait??

i'm quite disappointed with its specs..

=(

comparatively,
this baby has WiFi!!

it's not as pretty.. but hey.. i think the specs are overwhelming.
think of all the internet calls i can make..

*drifting to dreamland*

then.. i saw the N80!!

ok.. tomorrow 4D.. please please please...!

overrated

this life is overrated.

5 freaking hours and i'm still awake..
every single bloody night.

i suppose at least exams take my mind off things.. tire me like hell, then i can sleep.

after exams i thought the parties made me nocturnal.

obviously not.

haha.. obviously not.

i look more terrible now than during exams.

i get so tired of life.
so i lay in bed and see the morning rays seep through, then i wait til 9 to on the laptop.
that's what i do everyday. unless of cos i'm insane enough to turn to alcohol again.

i give up.
time to find something to do.

i think i need to find my goal in life.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

1 December 2006

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those who cannot make it on this date.. please voice out by elections date, or forever hold your peace..

and no excuses for not turning up.

muahahahahahahahhahahhahhaha!!!

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

quitter

i suppose i have a problem when everytime i say something outrageous, people tell me that i'm drunk.

they dont ask - they tell.

that's a problem.. right?

i picked up those habits years ago, and when you didnt like smokers, or the smell of alcohol, i did quit..

or at least lie to you when i needed a drink. that i was busy and couldnt meet you.. then sneak off with the SPs to grab a drink.

being the proud snob that i am, i never admitted that i had a problem.

they tell me one will do anything for the people they love.

i think i did. for awhile.

intoxication kept me going when you were not around.

i dont know if i still love you after so many years, but i know i am not happy.

how is it that i can make anyone feel that being with me can ruin my life. i dont understand.

so everyone's selfless.. and i'm a selfish person?

what does that make me? what does that make you? what made you think you're not good enough for me?

they tell me when you love a person you accept all their flaws and appreciate what they do. dont they? isnt that the reason why you like a person in the first place? then why do you expect me to change "for the better?"

because i reprimand myself for making you feel this way.

and i fall back to my only comfort.

everyone after you didnt feel right.. that's what i thought because i kept comparing them to you. now i dont. now i see them for what they are. now i'm trying to open my eyes. now i laugh when i feel like it and i cry when i have to.

i never teared because you said only cowards do. you forgot to remind me of its soothing effects.

now i want to quit not just because i dont love you anymore.

it's because i love myself.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Birthdays

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Happy Birthday to a hell lot of peeps...!!

Yongkang, Yeeling, Diana, Kailin...

hope i didnt miss anyone!!
Have lotsa fun growing up

and.. you're legally not a minor!!