hu Beneath The Masks: February 2007

Beneath The Masks

WHERE PEOPLE REVEAL THEMSELVES

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

NS bragging rights

I dont care what the guys think. The bragging rights to NS expires 1 year after ORD.

I hate it when people always say "aiya.. you've never been to NS, cannot endure hardship"..
BIG DEAL.. All the guys have been to NS.. It doesnt make you any special.

The fact is, so what if you've been to NS? It's not a point that can be used in an argument.
Engineers~~! Once again they've proven that my biasness is not uncalled for. You dont hear business guys talking about their NS stories when they know people are not interested to hear it. Some guys cant shut up despite me waving my fists at them.

NS~
Big deal.
The fact that you cant stop talking about it probably means that you're still as immature as before you went in. NS hasnt taught you anything, has it? Do something about that ego..
You ought to go sit in for a few more years..
The country calls you.

As for the rest of the guys..
Dont be like that fool. No one likes to hear about how "brave" you were. It's not as if you went to the vietnam war.

Secretly i think i couldnt care less about what goes on in other people's lives any more.
It's just about whether you cross that line, stumble into my world and piss me off.
I've never thought that people who bothered helping me out are people that I've never paid attention to in the 4 years of my secondary school life.

So i guess i really ought to see who else i've missed out in my life these days.
I guess it's this extra mile that people go for you that really means something to me. I guess maybe i'm expecting too much from people. Or do i?

I wonder if it's due to the professional skepticism thingy. Now i see 2 sides to people. One side they show, the other side my speculation. It's distressing.. really.. having to doubt the intentions of people around you these days, i start wondering if my fundamental principles has been violated.

It's not a nice feeling to doubt your friends. Not a nice feeling to bitch about them anyway, but sometimes the more you know, the more disappointing it becomes. Has the very nature of men been flawed all these while? Or has the condition of mankind deteriorated?

I know i've been harsh. Always have been, havent i? This skepticism just evolves into a shadow of doubt. Although i hate to admit that i've more or less been right in my speculations. Which probably makes the whole situation worse.. doesnt it?

I'm beginning to detest this world more than before. It's this feeling of disgust i cant really explain.

It's the feeling knowing that if you're drowning, no one will save you cos their nail polish isnt quite dry yet.



PS: Lappy's dead. Will be back when my baby's back. (btw.. joc, you're addited to the PS thingy huh? Ha.)

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Lessons learnt

I think people dont learn from their lessons anymore.
Remember the Superstar Concert tickets I told you about?
Turns out that none of the people I gave it to went.

So i brought up the topic intentionally to hint to them that they should be more appreciative of the things people do.. Even though people who don't know them, bringing the tickets to town for their convenience, and this is how we repay people - we make their jobs harder.

Apparently, I didnt get the message through because someone asked: "need to pay meh?"
I tell you. A fucking hour in audit can earn my company hundreds. It's not about the money. Have you people failed to see how that meant that people who wanted to go couldnt get in, and organisers could joepardise their relationships with their clients due to "lousy turnout"?

The fact is, most people that helped them didnt even get a simple "thanks". No.. all they ended up with was the embarrassment due to a probable "complication".

So that's why i'm disappointed. I cant see why none of you see it from my view.

Engineers ~~ Someone told me.
A stereotyping statement, dont you think? Considering that these are my friends?

So.. am i to say that engineers arent smart enough to see that life is not all about money?

Or should i narrow it down to a particular group? You engineers claim that people are biased against you. How about the actions you've taken for this prejudice to arise?

That's why i generally liked the business school. It doesnt mean that the people are fantastic.. you see, when though some of them sounded really fake, they never failed to thank you, to appreciate you for what you've done, and to share all the good things with you (past sem's quiz) even though it meant that you're a competitor to them. You see, they offer to do things for you!

Or is it due to some form of biasness again?

I've learnt a couple of lessons though.

  1. I've learnt never to do things that people dont appreciate, especially those that dont benefit you at all. you get left with the dirty work but you dont gain a single thing or get a single thanks. I'm pretty much sick of it.
  2. I've learnt never to plan birthdays again. People dont make it a point to mark it on their calendars, or fork out cash to buy presents. I think some of them will sleep through it if others did not remind them.
  3. I've learnt that the more i see, the more I understand that I am but an insignificant lifeform on this planet. And so are you. So that doesnt make us any different. Save the fact that I'm an undergrad.. that actually has common sense.
  4. I've learnt that it's okay to give up sometimes. I think Rong should too.. Everytime you crawl out of disappointment, somthing has to happen to push you back into the abyss again. I suggest you step onto the staircase i build for you and walk gracefully up than to grab the slippery vines that has failed you so often.
  5. I've learnt that it's okay to be selfish. Why do so much when people do little? I say we only do it for people we like. If i dont like you.. I really shouldnt waste time picking out a birthday cake for you when i can throw 5 bucks on the table and pray that someone nice (like Rong) will volunteer to take care of it.

And then conscience has to creep in and tell me that.. just maybe I really ought to learn from Rong.

Friday, February 02, 2007

cross stitch

Saw this guy on a train trying to do cross stitch...
I wanted to tell him that if he intended to start making that for Valentine's, he probably wont be able to make it in time.

That's sad.
But maybe he can. Who knows? He looks like he's pretty skilled.

Managed to grab a few tickets for the superstar finals on the 4th.

Tiong msned me asking "hey you interested in superstar?"
i was like.. "do i look interested?" *yawnzz*
Tiong "so hard to give them away leh"
Me "k lah.. i help you sell them lah.."

Managed to get rid of most of the tickets after making a few calls.
Tiong "you go lah!"
Me "seow! I dont even know who's in the finals!"

That's really sad. At least i knew that there was this half-blind-guy and a not-pretty-girl for the first superstar.

I really dont.
Both of us didnt even know when the finals was on.
I had to search the website for the date and time.

I guess i dont have much of a life left.
Maybe.

Capitaland's prices just kept increasing. Damned..
That's so not healthy for my AA206 cos it's officially hit the $7 mark.
This means that i cant buy as much shares as i planned!
(in case you dont understand, it's all part of my project)

I love fridays.
Laze around, do nothing, watch tv.

watch tv.

watch tv.

sleep.

eat.

watch tv.

eat.

sleep.

eat.
okay.. you get the point.

Turns out people actually liked the pair of earrings i made for lena.
the butterfly with green swarovski.
Green~~~ and i thought no one would be interested.
oh well.
that's good i guess..
considering that its sales performed better than most of the stuff i outsourced. i ought to be proud of myself.

Too lazy to update my blog these days.
Maybe its cos i cant resist bitching about people once i start blogging.

Or maybe partly the fact that i can hear Amelia's voice warning me about certain girls. Think i'm turning into one of those she warned me about.

So CNY is coming!
Hate it.
It's that time of the year when people will ask you about your boyfriends..
and get a rude stare from me.

What has that got anything to do with you?
It's that time my auntie will compare her precious daughter with me. The daughter will sit there and look dao, or occasionally, stand up and strutt.
I love it when she stands up.
Cos even with her 3 inch heels, she's way short compared to me wearing my old track shoes.
I love it when that happens. I love it even more when she looks way irritated when i talk to her bf. In fact, she reminds me of

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OS5yQFqXaaY , except less the value and fascination, and more terror and grotesque. Oh? How about my auntie you say?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EIELef5R6nY I guess. Cant complain much. They're all scary creatures.
I wonder why all these deep sea creatures are surfacing though..
Anything wrong with planet earth?

Yep. Ego!!

Yawn. As if i'm interested in some engineer.

Being an egoist is great. It makes life alot more simple.